wow...today i felt i was really blessed today.today's sermon was quite good and it really made me realise that i should just forget about the past and move on towards something better.haha it really makes sense to me,lol also dunno why i'm so happy but i know deep in my heart,to be able to be successful i still need to watch and reflect upon what i do everyday.

i am not on top with things like studies,character,leadership,cca and singing?haha,ya i'm not very good with things like that and i get critisized because i'm not good in those things...people compare me with people who are.so ya as a good person i just laugh it off and moved on.but as i ponder upon those critisisms i feel insecure and keep thinking am i really like that?did i act like that just now?some of them are true but most of them are purely not true at all.some of them are like really no link like:'you are lousy in so so,you cant be like___'then i'm like in my mind,'ok...so what has that entirely got to do with me?'and i pretend not to be irritated and just laugh it off.i know i'm a wimp complaining to myself like this,but i don't think i'm the only one.i think many people are also victims of critisms,to be given insecurities that are not suppose to be there.

and wads more the people who do this are my friends...what a sad world...even friends make this remarks of you.and i wanna highlight again they are your FRIENDS who are suppose to be the people who are ya,your friends.also most of them,i noticed are also guys...most girls are ok haha.so like...ya,its all this small things that can really affect your confidence in yourself and how you will think of your friend.but in a way it helps me develop in my character so that i am more open towards friends and accept even people who are not well-liked.

"do not stop and think about the bad memories,but learn from it,forget about it and move along..."

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Lol i'm studying for sci but at the same time blogging...argh I dunno how to study!!!>.<
This is bs!!!

Haha ok...I'm gonna make this clear to people...errherm.
I am not Obessed with snsd!!!
Haha I watch the vids cos I find it quite cool and cos yuri quite cute:) but that's not the main point manz...so ya plz don't misunderstand my action k?













































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Haha got u,....abit lame but really...don't misunderstand...

i have a burden for people,to do something that will change lives.even so i still need to have faith and change myself in the process.

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argh!my fever is back again...it's seriously bugging me now,always on and off.it caused me to have a really runny nose in class and i had no tissue!!!so i'm sure many of you could see me trying to wipe stuff off my nose,it really made me very miserable=(hopefully i'm cured by tomoro =D

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Argh!damn tired now...got fever-_- 37.6 and increasing at the moment.going to training didn't really improve my status but I think after I bathed it lowered a few degrees...haiz I hate this feeling of getting sick,it's so irritating man...first you get the coughes,than get the cold and then eventually getting the FEVER!!!waa it sucks big time!and the most irritaing part is that it always occur in the night and by day it is gone...god if you wan me get fever that give the whole package to me,don't give to me bit by bit,too torturing for me:(there are also possibilities of me nt gg to school tomoro cos I think this time the sickness will not be cured in the morning but see how first.argh I duwan miss school tomoro manz cos I'm still not clear of my math,I need the help from sch now and can't rely on my tution now as my tutor is also apparently sick too-.-"the whole world is getting sick...I actually thought that maybe after the math lesson I can sign out but the dumb thing is that math is on the last period...WT PORK!!!
So if things get bad tomoro it is either:
1)go to sch tomoro and endure the whole day of lessons
2)don't go to sch and try to study myself(if possible)
3)if not study last min and pray that tuition can be made possible on Sunday

o ya,tomoro I will be watching the s.league a match between safc and home united if the fever goes down...

Anyways...my violated hair sucks

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Haha,I think I made a fool of myself for the past few hours cos I keep tagging randomly when I'm bored.sorry bout this:phaha.
Err so ya...today I practically wasted my whole day by waking up at like 12-.-And from 12-2 I did nothing but watched tv and had my brunch.then at 3 I was invited to play basket ball with the guys.and now I'm back at home again watching Sunday night football...man..lit project we still not done yet:(and to add on my studying of the upcoming history test-.-Help!!!!

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don't shower with diarrhea!!!hahaha

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err...i dunno what to blog about now cos i'm tired,hungry yesterday not enough sleep.haha erms today i went out of the house and took a taxi to plaza sing to meet quinn.waah...and guess what,the fare cost $9!!!then i sian...no extra money later-_-so ya i met quinn at macs and we had breakfast before we have shepherding.haha and the funny thing was that both our ice lemon teas were slightly carbonated so it tasted really funny,it also had a slight greenish colour in the substance haha it seems like something that you can find in your toilet=p.so quinn didn't really drink the ice lemon tea but for me i drink anything that is cold haha.after shepherding we went to cathay and played LAN cos i wanted quinn to teach me some stuff about dota.i was pretty confused through the process of like what to buy for a specific hero and how to deny crypts at first,but after a while i got the hang of it so i was satisfied and changed to L4D.at 1.30 we walked back to centre point and went to macs again to meet up with cleon,jonathan,kevin,jang,nicole they all.they ate their lunch and soon after we were on our way to cuppage.svc was great as usual and the sermons was meaninggul...dunno why i don't want to elaborate more about svc erm,nvm moving on>>>we went to meredian to have our dinner.haha while we were all eating baining kept boasting to us about his watch he recieved from one of his class china buddies,Monica haha i think he is really mad about her=s.we went to lan again and played counter-strike which i felt i should be owning the game...haix today no form.then i went home with keith and quinn...hmms one whole day spent like dat...isit worth my time?O ya!!!HISTORY TEST!!!haha just remembered,i think i should be studying tomoro cos my tution is cancelled and postponed to monday.=DCheers!

found this song by the way,nice mv haha

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Our heart is something that never stops beating.
Our will is something that will never be broken easily.
Passion is a fire that will never be exstinguished
Dreams always bring us up to the future
Resolve will always be in our hearts to resist our tears
Faith are in the friends we trust in
Hope is always there for a better tomorrow.

But things will not always be like this,things will always change...

What if,
We stop breathing and our heart stops?
Our will is broken by the things around us?
Passion is there but eventually burns out?
Dreams are crushed and are nothing more than a thought?
Our resolve will be torn in our hearts and releases sadness within us?
Faith that is nothing but a lie?
Hope is something that brings our feet back to reality?

...when your breakingpoint comes what will you do?

If what I do now is the right thing,there will be no such thing as wrong in the world.
Things should be done better that it is beyond personal standards.
Fufilment is nothing without passion or desire.
If there is a thing called divorce,why is there marriage in the first place?
Faith cannot be there alone,it needs the support of others.
Hope is believing something that we will wait to happen by itself,faith is knowing that it will be fufiled and expectancy is present in the process of the wait.

I should be studying right now...

Waah,today school was a freaking unbelievably,astonishingly,non productive etc(need I say more?)waste of time!!!
I believed more could be done in spending these hours in other things then gg to school...argh!!!
I forget to prepare my time table for this week again,so I think this weeks stats will go down as a 1...-_-.anyway after school jh,kev,jang went to eat lunch o and before that we went to play soccer!at the field.haha I played until the I got a cut at the back of my foot as my shoe kept rubbing against my skin and I had sock that was full of blood!:D
We then went back to my place to slack abit before gg for basketball and being restless and childish as always I did many dumb and lame things like stuffing my blood-soaked sock into people,Tao poking people on my bed even though I was very dirty and the bed will be used by me...haiz,dunno why I keep doing this funny things.
So ya we went to linky and played soccer till 4,I was so tired man!!!and i only played like one match...dunno why I get tired so easily these few days,I have a feeling it's my asthma that is affecting me.after that match,I was committed to the decision of continuing my swimming lessons as it really helps people with asthma and cos I wanna achieve my gold star!:)Lol,the dumb thing is people kept asking me why was I emoing...I mean like trying to regain my breath by sitting at a corner is not necessary to mean that I am emoing wad-.-
Then after that we played a few more matches with jon Liu and a few of his classmates,haha we dam funny cos everytime someone scored,the person had to be the keeper.so obviously I tried not to score as much.haha,anyway I felt weizhang was really gd today,got some samba magic.haha
After a while,people got tired of soccer and played basketball,so we had no choice but to follow...sian
Basketball today for me was quite normal,never really excert myself haha I am not actioning aar..I humble one:)by the time we were ready to go home it was already 9.30 plus le.and everyone was like argh! late le! Then we all chionged back home!!!
"normal day today...nothing special..."

Sian...how improve my soccer!?

Success to many people is to achieve.To achieve in your studies,achieve in your working career,achieve in sports,achieve in completing your life long dreams.All of this are good,they are things that give you what you want like fame, fortune,family,a good job,an achievement etc;
So what will happen if let's say you have completed what you want to achieve in life,what will be next?Is this what your life and my life will be in the future where you have a fountain of wealth?a globalised fame?Do you really think this is life?to work hard,earn money then die?
This things only last in your lifetime,the fountain will dry up one day and your fame can be at most be a legacy in the end which people will remember.
From my prospective:To live for some future goal is shallow.Like a mountain,we always aim to go to the top,the peak,the highest point of it...but we must always remeber it's the side of the mountain that sustain life,the success is there,not the top.In the present,my goal is to do something in my life that will be sustainable for the rest of my life and not something i will do to a certain extent of it.

"...Success will be to me climbing a mountain ,where failiures will be ever present and dissappointment to ponder upon but it does not matter how slow you are going but what matters is that you never stop and when your times up,you will be able to say yes...i have completed this journey...and what you will leave behind will be a set of footsteps inprinted to the ground for others to follow..."

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