"...in the next few min...I would have failed two of my goals..."

This week has been frigging omg...I can't even think straight now,got so many things running through my head at the same time,so many things I have to decide on,so many times I taste defeat...

And when I thought tmr would be a better day...it god freaking worse!I mean...it's not even one quater of the year and i've been in this much shit...how much of it am I gonna recieve?!taboleh tahan la,I knew this year would be damn hard but I never expected it to be that hard.there's only so much of ass washing with a cup I wanna do!

Like...here's an example(assume it is untrue cos it is...this e.g does not refer to anyone,even if the story maybe similar to that person.any negative thoughts caused is deeply regretted): you guys think that you don't want to attend "it" cos you people have other 'piorities' based on factors that include yourself in it.And me myself,rush my ass there on a weekly basis and attend without fail.I made many sacrifices financially,physically and mentally.but when I see what's happening around me...I think to myself "other than god,what am I doing this for?I might as well be like them." it's really sad...when I see all this things happening it really breaks my heart...

There are also times when I try to help,but got ignored...
There are times when I tried my best,but got criticized for my efforts...
There are times when I saw light...but darkness was given out from others and it blocked my heart...
There are times when I extended my hand...but you just pushed me away...
There are times I wanted to have a strong heart...but it broke in an instant when troubles came by...this is the sad and unfair world we live in...

All this "things/examples" I said,at least on of them is true or is infact happening right now in your life.My life,personally is now you can say, in a 'mess' but the thing,the driving force behind my every intention is you.'You' may not only refer to people,god or friends...but It can be many other things that are important in your life...

So when you feel like giving up,when you feel rejected,when you feel lost,when you felt betrayed(and the list goes on and on)...ask yourself what is the thing that drives your every intention,what is the thing made you held on,what is important in your life?

The reasons why we are deeply enraged with emotions mostly is not because of these factors,but what we think of them.

"...Everyone has their own battles and it is up to you in how you want to win it...it's always been you..."