Taking time to
Reflect my past failiures,
Regroup my purpose,
Reset my goals,
Rest my mind,
Remember the reason,
Reemphasis my objectives and
Restart this journey again...

sometimes we just lost our way without knowing it and subconsciously sink into an entity of darkness...

"Do more than belong: participate. Do more than care: help. Do more than believe: practice. Do more than be fair: be kind. Do more than forgive: forget. Do more than dream: work."

-William Arthur Ward

There is always something that we can work on in our lives,we just need to know what we lack in.

Labels: Common knowledge

When I was young,I was five when I watch my first soccer game.It was a replay of the Liverpool vs Westham F.A Cup final.As I watched I could still remembered my love at first sight for the game,it was when the captain of,Steven Gerrard, struck a miraculous ball from a distance and gracefully it hit the back of the net with a bang.What I saw when that happen was just indescribable,I could still remember how the crowd went wild,the players were all celebrating with such joy and thrill.From that moment on,what I had on my mind was something any ordinary Singaporean would say will be a 'dream',I wanted to be a player at Liverpool...

As of today,this dream of mind have just faded into something to be even less than a thought and if I ever told you football is something my life depend on you wouldn't believe me.Part of it is leaning on to the fact that is because it is something true.Football is just part and parcel of my life,at least for the past 4 years of my life,it is something I take as a hobby or a element of fun.But on the other hand it is also something true becuase after the day I watched the match,I went back to my childcare,found a ball and started kicking it against the fence with all the strength I had in my leg.My friend then curiously asked me what was I doing,he questioned why wasn't I playing blocks with them.I then answered him with pride in my face,"I'm playing football..."That was my first few moments when I felt I was moving towards my dream

But towards the end of primary school life,I realise being the best was hard especially when you had other areas in your life you have to strive in.So slowly I stopped playing soccer and towards sec 1 I have already lost interest in the sport because of many things,such as discouragements and watching others surpass you in the sport.It was really disheartening because you have to lose something without a choice but a reason.It's like being a bird trying to fly but you know you can't cause you are tied down.

The effect of the cause is really evident because if some may realise when they watch me,I am not as 'enthusiastic' for the sport anymore.I usually don't feel like playing when there is an oppurtunity to whereas in the past I would give up everything and play whenever possible.I am not as committed to the CCA in sec school as compared to pri school where I never missed even one training.I sometimes lost the willpower to even run for a ball,whereas in the past I would the one racing for every ball for my team.

Now,in this time of my life,football is just a CCA to me.I realise every known fact of football that it is Impossible to be even representing my own country,a small dot on earth,how isit even possible to play for something that is just a dream?

~In thailand,from young,elephants are kept by a rope that is pegged to the ground and attatched to it's leg.Being a young infant,the elephant is unable to pull free from the rope that is hammered to the earth as it is still weak,it will keep struggling but as always it gives up in a few days time.Fully growned elephants are also being secured in a similar way,with a rope attatched to it's leg and only secured with a nail in the ground,but still the elephant is unable to break free.The reason is simple,because of the fact that when this elephant was young,it had the mentality that it was unable to pull itself free and eventually gave up trying.Even now being the same elephant,it had enough strength that with just a simple kick it would bring the nail out of the ground.But it won't because,it already knows that it would be useless to even try...