It's about 1.55am,haha I'm so retarded suddenly just randomly post. Honestly I feel I just have to do something before I can get into my sleeping mode,sleeping nowadays don't seem to give me the rest I need. The body may rest but the mind is still active.

Anyways I'm in kevins house:) oh man I'm so hapy cos it's been a long time since I've been able to have a stay over,thank god for that! Erm so right now all of them are alr sleeping(Kevin,zhouzhi,jinhan) but I'm still awake! Yay losers sleep so fast.

Oh and about this post,it's not just a random one which I posted to cure my boredom,but it actually has a purpose. I could not sleep and did the usual things like fbing,reading soccer news etc to try and get me to fall asleep. But apparently after half an hour I'm still wide awake-.-

I tossed and turn before having a look out at the window watching the moon as it glances back at me, thinking what would tmr would be like and in that instance I was hit by a memory a long time ago where I asked myself the same question. It was the day before the first day of secondary school and being excited for the first day of school to have a first hand experience of wht being a teenager is like, I look out of my window in the same way and I asked what would tomorrow be like?

From that day onwards I begin to learn and realise that living as a teenager is not easy,it's a period where challanges would be thrown at us constantly. Like a crazy roller coaster ride,you may never know when a turn is coming,when a plunge may hit us and occasionally we get to relax a while while we are at the top,but in the next instant we are dropping back down again.

I can swear that if I was to try and figure out how my future would be like in sec 1, I would not have imagined it to be like what is in my life right now. I would not have guessed that two of my good friends right now where people which i do not really like in a past,I would not have guessed that I would have a belief in my life,that I would have responsibilities to handle.

But at that time I would also never imagined that I would have a relationship just at sec1, would be a person that is low in self esteem, a person that has a broken family, a directionless person which has lost responsibility to lead and also having a miserable life that is tied down by many activities altogether.

Haha I know what I typed may sound gay,retarded or redundant to be in the page. But from this small pocket of thoughts, I am able to see the past things that happen to me for the pass three years and that how I have been as a person since I entered this new life. It's such a big change,both good and bad are present. All of these are linked by part and parcel of happenings in my life. From a simple word of love,to stresses and sad events.

By looking out of the window and just reflecting does not form a write up of thoughts which gains sympathy or oppurtunities for encouragement from others. But rather a status check,a write up that enables one to think about their wrongs to rights and how are they gonna change that in their currents and future life.

~"Don't just float,stay grounded to earth and live life to the fullest."

amen.(Star count 0)

Argh life without and Internet connection sucks!!! I'm so desperate for it that I even have to cope from other wireless connections which are freaking slow!!! I feel so stress right now cos just now I was blogging on my iPhone and when I was about to push send,someone called me and whatever I wrote is gone! Sianz...

I'm so tired from writing another page of what I'm gonna post about so I'm just gonna screw it ans write something else. Yay:)

Erms...today is a boring day,after school I had nothing to do.Kevin had remedial and something aft that,zz had cca and Clarabelle invited me to follow them to see a performance by Beast and 4Min but I refused,no offence but I don't really like K-pop.I came home eat bathe then had to rush out again to watch a movie with my bro.We were late so we took a cab to Tiong. After the movie we went to the arcade and I just sat there and watch as my bro played tekken for half and hour,we met this guy from Fairfield not really sure what his name is I think is Jet or something. He also plays tekken and challenged my bro two times and on both occasions he lost.LOL!!!

We came back soon after that.I'm so sian that I think that other than jin han Kevin or zz I have no other friends to hang out with.Sigh such a lonely boy;( Well I'm quite tired alr,haha I fell asleep two times while typing this:D So I'm gonna slp now!!!